Today, is (Day さん)

Cos you know I'll walk a thousand miles
if I could just see you, tonight
(Random song of the day)

(Actually I was supposed to finish the blogskin and everything by Monday, but these days I've been feeling really out of sorts. So I just put everything together in one entry.
... Fine I don't really feel like talking much so, enjoy the sad mood. Lollll.)

Day 1:

I told myself I wouldn't cry today. Anything, but cry. Cos once I started, I won't stop.
I just don't know why tears just streamed down when I heard his voice.
When he called with that, 'Hi darling!' tone he always uses with me, I stoned.
I knew I had so much to say. But I didn't. I felt just happy. That he reached there,
he was fine with his surroundings, and he's safe. That's all it matters.

But there's 19 more days to go.

... 19 days' a long time. I hope by the end of 19 days, ____ would have changed.
(Courage, どうぞ!~)

Day 2:

When I woke up today, I laid in bed and stared at the wall blankly, and half an hour passed.
I just tossed, and turned, and tossed, and turned. And I sighed.
I hid all of Darling's things in his box, and moved his pictures to a folder I don't usually touch.
I dragged myself to the shower, sat down on the bathroom floor, and I cried.
I can't stand myself sometimes for being such a crybaby.

Day 3:

The only thought I had when I awoke was that tomorrow was Thursday,
and it kinda irked me a little, knowing what was on that day. (Only Darling & I know, lol)
but other than that I felt fine, until the postman (woman) came.
Usually I would be happy when she delivered my registered articles, but today it made me sadder.
I remembered how Darling would always snatch the packages from me, cos I said to him once,
"The best part of buying stuff is opening them and trying them at home!"
But today, he wasn't here with me to share my joy so I just threw it aside.
It totally didn't help that I indulged myself in sappy love songs and kept blanking out.
I hope everything sad I've felt these days (& in the coming 18 days left) would be exchanged for happiness I'll be able to feel when he comes home!

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So, I changed the blogskin. So many people have started using the moving script thing,
so it was really getting kinda boring seeing similar things everywhere.
The quote on the picture was something I found online, and if I ever find nicer ones,
I'll change the quote on the picture so it won't be the same forever.


I shouldn't be looking at pictures but I can't resist, ugh! Hate myself for being so contradictive.
Dear, I miss you! Can you please come back soon..

(Random picture of the day: One of the albums I've been listening to.
It's hard to find a chinese rock album, and even harder that I like all the songs in it. This is it :)


(Lyrics available at the Imeem link, have left them in a comment :)

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Not many admit the truth, but in reality, the world is a disgustingly superficial place.

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I caught Kurosagi (finally) last week, & I couldn't stop squealing throughout the movie (lol)
I will never forget the scene where Yamapi said, "I'm sorry", and he ____. (I bet they cut off that scene in Singapore cinemas lollll!)
Overall I enjoyed it, even though I had no idea what Maki-chan's role was supposed to do.



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I love going out in the middle of the night with Darling,
the peacefulness and quiet is something you'll never get to feel in the daytime.


This is the very cute (but expensive) Yukie (Or Yuki?) in Hui's house. She's tiny.


And likes to hide under the bed.


Something I drew for birthday girls




Very delicious chicken rice at Golden Mile food centre, 2nd floor.
$2.50, inclusive of a bowl of soup.
Left one's chocolate shake, from other side of 2nd floor. Sweet but not overpowering. $3
(Never sit under the umbrellas at the 1st floor unless you want cockroaches crawling over you.)


It was quiet at 10am.








I looked blur cos I just woke up from a nap. Yes I slept with lashes on, I was lazy


Do you see what I saw? (Apart from Darling's laundry ahem)

Ah for the next 3 weeks, I'm going to be very lonely. Date, anyone?

(Random picture: Cards I made for birthday girls Piggy & Hui.)

& happy (advanced) birthday dears! It's funny all my besties are Libras' (Joel, Piggy, and Hui)
And their birthdays are only 4 days apart of each other, especially Piggy & Hui!
Happy birthday(s) you two! Finally grown 19 :)
I won't say too much, everything's written inside the card(s)! Love you all dears!

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I've finally found someone (or rather, page, that understands me perfectly.)
Give it a try and see it's accurate for yourself or not,
3 extremely true points:

Pingping uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

(I do enjoy being alone at times, very much so. However when I am in my unexpressive mood, people often deem me as having an attitude problem. :)

Pingping will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

(*nods aggressively. I love you Darling(s)! :)

Pingping will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

(This is the truest of them all. I really dislike people asking me stuff when they've already made up their mind. Pffft. What's the point, you tell me?)

Ah, if only the web was a real guy, he would be my dream guy. HAHA.
My full report is here, it's lengthy but accurate though.

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I'm looking forward to our future together.
It's really something that makes me happy with just the mere thought,
although it has barely started.
However, to kickstart it, I need courage. Alot of courage. Anyone, please?

As written by the web,

The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past. Pingping seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action.

It's hit the nail on the head. If courage comes in a bottle, I would have bought a dozen.

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Ah my internet connection is rather slow lately. And my flu won't go away.
And my computer's CMOS battery is running low.
And I missed Hana Kimi's Special. (AH NAKATSUUU~ Major :( please)
And I just realized most of my posts I blog after 10.30pm. (Lol totally random)


Ah I miss Darling's hugs!

Darling's feet has some fungal infection again.
Just like my eyes' infection. I think we've got some affinity with it.
(As if anyone wants any kind of affinity with fungal lol)
(Ah what's with spelling errors I keep spelling two as too)
(Ah SEE I spelt mood as mode just now!)
(Ah I just realized no one can see it cos I deleted it away. Pffffffffffffffffft!)
(Ah fine I'm in an extremely random mood again)

(Random picture of the day: Truth, by Arashi, theme for Maou :)

Today is Joel's birthday! Happy birthday dear!
(Ah I know by the time you see this your birthday will most probably be over but I hope you like what we got! :)

Ah I'm so tired today. Woke up like 7am to go to Lavender.
Wore my len(s) out though I know I shouldn't, and now I think the eye infections are starting again LOL = =
(Don't start telling me 'I told you so', I'll whack you)
We had breakfast at a nearby food centre and the place was so darn dirty
cockroaches climbed upon me. Like seriously. Zzz.
(Washed my hair 35435436546452 times when I got home = =)


So, in a few weeks.. :(


I missed Hana Kimi's special yesterday, cos I was doing this banner

(Random picture of the day: This is my house's doorway! ^^)

I am feeling ___. I just accidentally deleted a whole folder of links away.
Sheesh. Just a wrong click and I lost 30 of my links ._.

Oh, and a miracle presented itself to me today. Completely brightened my day, I should say.
Because I'm in a rush, I'll elaborate next time!

Ah I am still stuck in the 'Toma-sama's birthday mood" (Ah why did I say sama again?!)
Everytime I see his photo, I can't help but go, "Ah, 24 already neh, Toma-sama~ ♥"
I saw my photo to Toma in the Toma forum, and I got so excited

(On a sidenote, my besties' birthdays are coming and I'm glad to say I completed everyone's presents on time. Yay! :)


This is my new want.
Canon Powershot E1. It's pink! Lollllll~ (Source)

• Effective Pixels: Approx. 10.0 Megapixels
• Focal Length: 6.2-24.8mm f/2.7-5.6 (35mm film equivalent: 35-140mm)
• Zoom: 4x Optical/4x Digital/16x Combined Zoom with Optical Image Stabilizer System
• Shutter Speed: 15-1/1600 sec.; Long Shutter operates with noise reduction when manually set at 1.3-15 sec
• ISO Sensitivity: Auto, High ISO Auto, ISO 80/100/200/400/800/1600 equivalent (Standard output sensitivity. Recommended exposure index)

My flu has been stuck onto me for days. Days! It won't go away


Have you pre-ordered Jay's new album yet? If not, you should.
(I sound like his fan. But I'm not. Darling is. Just thought the picture's concept was interesting LOL)

I'm gonna go prepare myself now! I'm meeting Darling later. :)