Tuesday, October 31, 2006

before anything else just wanna say something.
DON'T pin any hopes on me for next week's O lvls.
cos im not gonna make it.
better to face up to reality thn to let it hit me in the face laters.

im gonna be busy coming NOV. ahahahs.

random crappy pics, again.
lazy to blog in detail nowadays.
anyways ive been slacking at home more these days so nothing to blog. lOls.
can someone scrap off the O lvls sia. =____________________________="

entertainment100%! ahahahs =) xiaoGUI~~! lOls. dan fei bu jiao HONG! =__="

my PURPLE nails. lOls. my dad say like ghost liddat. =____=" is REAL de not FAKE de k!

JAY JIELUN concert VCD! weeets =) SOMEONE lend me de. ahaha =)

ren zhen de nan ren zhui shuai.
a man is at his best when SERIOUS.

my comp is SUPER lagggggggggggggggggggg nowadays sia =__="


*squeals [o.o"]

he refused to show his face so i took his hand. LOLS

hide, hide nvm~ i stil managed to take ur pic anyways. LMAOS

ignoring me and playin his games. =___="

[O1] Is there someone who you like at the
moment ?
it's probably more thn LIKE bahs. =)
[O2] Have you ever given or been given roses ?
[O3] What is your all-time favorite romance movie ?
forgot le.
[O4] How many times can you honestly say you've
been in love ?
twice. this is the second.
[O5] Do you believe everyone has a soulmate ?
[O6] Do you think that you should be friends first ?
if not? go to any guy on the street and say; hey lets get together in a relationship? duhhs.
[07] Have you ever had your heart broken ?
who hasnt?
O8] What do you think about long-distance
relationships ?
its difficult if the trust ain't there.
[O9] Your thoughts on online relationships ?
its a good start. kinda. whatever.
[1O] Would you rather date someone 5-6 years
older or 5-6 years younger ?
nahhhs. older maybe but younger no.
[11] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a
friend ?
ahahaha. i was dumb.
[12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater
always a cheater" ?
[13] How many kids do you want to have ?
TWO! or one.
[14] Do you usually fall for a wrong boy/girl or the
right boy/girl ?
its hard to really define whats right or wrong when you're in love. sometimes the heart takes over the mind.
[15] What is your favorite color(s) ?
purple, black.
[16] What are your views on marriage ?
its not as easy as some people think it is. managing it can take effort; a marriage doesnt work with just love.
[17] Have you ever broken someones heart ?
[18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died,
would you re-marry ?
what for? and break his heart when you die or vice versa?
[19] At what age did you start noticing the
opposite ?
never really thought =___="
[2O] What song do you want to hear at your
wedding ?
xin xing quan by jOlin
[21] Does somebody like you ?
hopefully its more thn like for him..
Did you know?
before you go to sleep at night,
there is one person thinking of you.
Tthey want you.
they want to kiss you,
they want to be with you
they are always thinking about you before they go to sleep at night
they are longing to be with you.
do you think the same way about them?

if everything was nothing but a beautiful dream
let me stay in my slumber forever.

i feel so stupid, so silly, like a fool.
i feel so lost after being spun round&round by you.
what am i supposed to believe; really?

am i really the one for you?
loving you hurts so much.

yet i cant bring myself to stop loving you.

i cut cos the pain has already broken my heart.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

loving someone was never said to be an easy job.
i hope i never get to quit.

the insecurities.
the unsolved equations.
where are all the answers?

im telling myself im not missing you but it doesnt seem to work anymore.

some random pictures.
did some fake nails for xiaoPIGG day before.

they were PURPLE! =)

i even arranged them nicely so that they were in order. HAHA.

and MINE! mine were BLACK. only 5 thou enough for one hand. cos i lazy to do the other five. zzz =__="

the next day i woke up and went to my kitchen only to find..

a FREAKING BIGG hole in the middle of my kitchen floor. was like WTH =__="
was SHOCKED sia =___="
turns out my dad took the tiles out forgot for what. zzz.

took this just now while in the midst of watching tv.

i might be strong on the outside
but inside i might be breaking.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

the bittersweet tears,bittersweet feelings.
they never seem to cease.

can you tell me whats going through your mind?
im too tired to guess anymore.
the tears have flowed more then enough.
a simple answer is all it takes to satisfy my insecurites.

sometimes i think i love you so much it hurts me.

if i think anymore i might just jump down the 13th floor.
thinking = MOREcrazed.
i have this sudden urge to just switch off from the world.

a man can fall in love with many at one time but a woman will only love one man at a time.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

support LUCIFY hOrr! =)
Oct 17 was HUIs bday =)
so me&jOel went to her house to give her a surprise! but sorry wOr Hui only got us two sia =__=" the rest all got band&school. we went to her house earlier @ 4 plus&jOel blew the balloons. WAHAHAS xD

he blew this manyballoons. long-winded guy. LMAOS.

when he was tired he sat around and played with the DOGGYSHOES. xD

we wrote MANYmanyMANY messages on the balloons. =) everyone is DIFFERENT de can! xD

while rotting in her room we played with the balloons. =D
fun-ness! lOls

after waiting for 2465 gazillion years the birthday girl FINALLY came back
her CAKE =)

her cake tasted good. lOls xD

the shy birthday girl who refused to get her photo taken. LOLS.
the next day or something me&xiaoPIGG went for a haircut.
she came my house.. ROT before that ba. i FORGOT. anw I MISSED GONG 4 ESP IN A ROW CAN =__="" DOTS. iWANTwatch la but everyday got something on i was like #@$#!@## =__="

the kiss. okay la is PECK. =__=

ohya before that we went to this japanese store in PLAZASINGAPURA the store sold like LOADS of japanese stuffs and we bought fake nails xDD

the LONG fringe which irritated my EYES but couldnt bear to cut off THEN. =__=

SHORTER FRINGE! wahaha =xx my mom say i look like xiaomeimei =__="
i think people see me xiaomeimei now lOr.
few days back i was on my way to meet xiaoPIG thn got this group of like sec2 sec3 at playground keep calling me EHHS girl wearing purple de! OEI! MEIMEI! dots de lOr. if i tell them how old i am they will O.O ba can =__=" bunch of XIAO DI DIs. =__="
andandand! my PURPLE nails xDD
some other random zi lians.

toooooooooootpid shoes. =)

ilovemyshorterhair.whahahas =xx

i fear the day where you will come to me
to tell me you don't love me anymore.
i fear the time when i'm alone
and all our memories;

they come surging back to me.
all the things we used to do,
i fear we won't do them anymore.
and i fear the coming of the day where
you will tell me you're gonna leave me alone.
at the end of the day,
they're all that haunts me in my sleep.

can you look into my eyes
&tell me why these bittersweet tears exist ;

Friday, October 20, 2006

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go,
she couldn't go back to being herself anymore,
she'll never be the same.
A girl won't cry easily,
except in front of the person
whom she loves the most,
she'll become weak.

A girl won't cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she puts down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay
with you for the rest of her life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please don't give her up,
maybe because the decision you made,
you'll ruin her life.
When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain & hurt she's feeling?

Which other girl with pure sincerity,
would have cried
Infront of you,
And because of you?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, and agony have
became too big a burden to be kept inside.
Guys, think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
It's time to look back on what you have done,
Because only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
because one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".
Ponder this message seriously.
Don't do this to a girl,
You may regret this for the rest of your life.
Maybe throughout your whole lifetime,
she's gonna be the ONLY one

who loves YOU the most.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Before anything else.
u're 17 liaos please stop being so childish le kaes. =)
dont be so EMO like ur mom ME please.
lOls =xx
stay CHEERFUL & everythings' gonna be ALRIGHT de can =))
happybirthday!! xDD

as seen on superband; LUCIFY.
been blogging often nowadays.
zzz. good thing or bad?
anyways this is gonna be a LONG post. with pictures la.

xiaoPIGG Chong me & greg went to Vivocity ytd.
was SUPER crowded&the place was SUPER big = ="
was FULL of shops can!
but some not opened yet so we were sian 1/2 = ="
wanted to watch a movie, BUT no tickets everything was sold out >< wahahas =xx

us in the train going to Harbourfront
Chong was trying to act ghostly = ="

with Chong's phone
BUTBUTBUT! why his camera clearer thn mine when mine is 2 megapixels = ="

the view @ Vivocity =)
SOOO pretty! except the haze.
it ruins everything sia =xx
toootpid HAZE! =(

after walking a few rounds (note:not the whole of VivoCity) we were TIRED. = ="
too many people i think. hahahas. or could be cos xiaoPIGG&my shoes killing us. my TOOOOOTPID shoes. my feet now got blisters so pain >< !! thn we couldnt decide where to go so we ended up going to doubygaught to see whether we could get tickets to movies. in the end no have = =" so we took PICTURES!! xDD

after that we really had nothing to do but alot of time to spare. = ="
so we decided to go to MY house for mahjOng, which i wasnt taking part in. wahahahaha =xx

why issit so clear again? O.O

so after they went home i was watching GUESS! at home and there was this CHAO KE AI de xiaodidi dancing like he was 16! he's only SIX but his dancing skills are like WOAH! O.O

kids nowadays are just SO talented sia. i hope my kid grows to be like him~ wahahas =xx

i like this picture but i think it looks weird in a way. hahahas =xx maybe it's of the eyeliner i had on. like kena people whacked liddat. LOLS =xx

hmmms ohya. i got a new blog song! again, apparently.
weeets xD
i keep on playing&playing&playing it today. lOls =xx
Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

- Like A Star; Corinne Bailey Rae.

myheartisALIVE ;
thou it now feels DEAD.
i wish to be REVIVED ;
but you keep pushing me back ;
back into the GRAVE.
you take thy HEART &smash it SOHARD
everytime i just get more
&moreBROKENwith each smash
isiltmylifeaway ;
with each silt you make down my heart
leaving me to cry ALONE ;

in the wee hours of the morning
i awake&find myself recalling
all the memories we once shared
these vicious cycles; they do repeat..