#Cancer

I didn't realize in a span of a single day, so many things would happen and things would have changed that much.
It's kinda weird.. But in a weird sorta way, I asked for it.
I keep recalling this particular tweet I saw:

RT: @ZodiacFacts: As a #Cancer,don't Get too affectionate too quickly. Use your intuition to read his or her signals. And keep a safe and respectful distance.

I guess I failed in that aspect, & grew too close.
I was always craving for attention, and when I got it - it's not what I want.
Zhizhi told me, this year I've actually got 桃花运 (Translated literally, it's Peach Blossom, but actually refers to Love Luck in Mandarin.)
Just that, it's all bad ones. (*sweat) I don't really think they're bad ones, but just not suited for me I suppose?
One's married, the other's leaving soon. Who are they to leave me any promises?

I've always thought I was a stubborn woman. Funny how that seems so easily rebutted by Zhizhi.
I've never had a friend like her before, who challenges all my thoughts and actions.
It's interesting, and I kinda love her for it. Slowly but surely, it's like she's peeling me off layer by layer, and showing the real me out. I like it.
She says, I shouldn't be so tender-hearted. I always thought I wasn't.. But I realize words tend to sway me easily.
Funny how that happens so easily these days.

Ah, this week's been so long. I'm glad it's over, and my trip couldn't have been at a better timing!
Oh, I also got myself a Sony TX-5. HEHEHE.


Touchscreen, Scratch-Proof, Freeze-Proof, and BEST. OF. ALL - WATERPROOF HAHAHA


I have to say - the first time I was really fucking apprehensive dropping it into the water k!
(Imagine the first time you drop it in and you ruin it utterly lol)
(If you're wondering, this is a supposedly artistic picture of me dropping the camera into a pail and then shaking it.)


I pretty like the TX-5 outta water, to be honest. It does tend to over-saturate pictures abit, but it's handy enough. This was a great day and we were outdoors playing badminton! (To sustain my ongoing diet wtf)


Superly loves her, I think she brings out the maternal side in me, to be honest. I super love it when she lets me carry her up and she hugs me awwww :)
(Everytime Boyf carries her she smacks him on the face HAHAHAHA)


A big, cheery picture to end this post. I think I'm happier after ranting, I think I know what I want.
Oh well - a full day tomorrow: Kbox with Grandma & Shimin, Chinatown, dinner with colleagues AND Transformers at midnight with Boyf!
Sounds super awesome, don't you think? HEHEHE

June 25th

Today marks the 10th death anniversary of my Grandfather. Has it really been that long?

I don't have much memories of him, but he took care of me from a very young age, with my grandmother, when Mom was working in a factory then.
He always sat in that rocking chair of his, & till this day, Grandma still keeps it well.
I know Grandma misses him alot these years. She's always whining about how Granddad doesn't visit her in her dreams.
He loved watching action movies - he always got agitated watching them. I think the phrase 'Sitting on the edge on your seat' really applied for him.
Still remember, at his funeral - when I saw him lying there, and he looked just the same as he ever were, just paler. Somehow I can't get it out of my head.
There's this particular memory I have etched inside my head of me, Grandma & Grandpa laughing & having fun. I always recall that memory first whenever I think of Grandpa.
It makes me smile, and it makes me sad.
He doted on me. I believe I was his & Grandma's favourite grandchild. I still do.

Grandpa, how are you up there? I hope you're having fun.
Don't worry, I'll use all the love you've doted on me on Grandma. I'm not gonna let her be lonely. Love you, Grandpa.


Simplest things are hardest to achieve. Don't you think? (Link: 43 things)

Flawed

越喜欢一个人 越愿意找到优点 越讨厌 越容易看到缺点
The more you like someone, the more you're willing to conceal his flaws.
The more you dislike someone, the more you're willing to expose his flaws.

My heart wants to take the lead but my mind is foolishly frightened.
What do you want, Liping?

Loot post #1

I realize I am most definately one who needs to spend time at home at least once a week.
To just stay at home, chilling around, reading a book, in my own room.. Love that.
Feels like ever since Boyf 'moved' into his new house I've been denied of this privilege. Hmmm..

Anyhow.. Since my loots from various sprees just arrived today (Thanks to Mr. Postman ) Imma do a loot post! Nothing much this time, just some rings~


Kenna cheated by the image on the Forever21 website only
The cross necklace, although pretty, is so tiny
I am totally in love with the Plane Geometry Rings though


And as you can tell.. I'm kinda obsessed with animal rings at the moment. Tiger, alligator, owls... You name it, I (almost) have it (all).. Oops?

I'm feeling really kinda shitty right now. Me & Boyf had a pretty big fight just now.
I told him he has got to stop making promises he cannot keep.
Why do men always say things they cannot do? I absolutely abhor that. Can't do it? Don't fucking say it. Simple.
You know, out of all the men in my life, only 2 has kept all the promises they told me: Joel & Greg.
I just don't know why my best friends can do it and not you.
Anyhow, there was a lot of shouting and crying and although we're fine, I'm not even sure he understands why I got so mad. MEN.

Last but not least, a really cute picture to end it off..

This is Boyf's littlest sister. And I'm pretty sure you can figure it out what she's doing.
Off to bed, hopefully you who's reading this will have a better day then I am.

Cooling Day

Look around you. We are living in a beautiful garden city. We have a low crime rate. Our dollar is strong.
From what we were, we've come such a long way, to be a safe, beautiful first-world country.
I think we should be grateful for what we have and not bite the hand that feeds us.

Some are making decisions based on what they are blinded by. But still, I feel that we should not believe some who have spout only words but done nothing.
Don't be easily deceived by merely words.
Shouldn't we put our trust in those who have proved themselves to us?
Yes, they made mistakes. But no one is perfect, and they bothered to apologise. Isn't that what matters?

So many have said harsh words. So many have biased opinions. Others are nonchalant about this.
This is not a decision to be taken lightly. This is not a game. This is our future.

I hope on Sunday, we will not be regretting the choices we made as one.
I worry.

Ah, this has been such a cryptic post. But I suppose most Singaporeans would have realized what I'm talking about.

I hope we make a right decision.

You know what they say...

... Absence really makes the heart grow founder.
Ah, I miss boyfriend.

How much do you value your heart?

If I ever lose my heart again, I would not give my heart so easily the next time.

[Edit] Um. I totally did not mean to mean the above in a morbid manner.
Thanks for your concern people, but me and boyf are fine. (Except for occasional pillow fights)
I just meant. I'm not prone to giving my heart away so easily.
Because I've been seeing alot of these things happen these days. A rebound relationship (of sorts) all around. And I don't get it.
I've been with boyf for 4 years, almost 5 now. And if the relationship should ever come to an end, I just don't think I'll have the patience to be together with another guy.
To learn someone all over again; his character, his personality, what he likes, what he doesn't....
What if it doesn't work right? Should I even bother to do so much?
Why should I put in so much effort only to have my heart broken?

It's funny though. Sometimes I really crave the feeling of puppy love... Sweet, innocent, no strings attached.
Everything, now that we've grown up, comes with a price.
I really want to go back to my seconday school days. Those, were really the best time of my life.
If I had to make a decision to choose between him & this.. I know I'll make a selfish decision.

Ah. Enough of rambling. This was supposed to be a short edit but I ended up rambling so much rubbish.



I think what this space needs is more of my face lol.[/Edit]

Weekend Paradise

Give me a laptop, junk food, and water and I'll be satisfied for a whole weekend.
That's how I spent my Saturday and I think it's pretty awesome. :D
Chiong-ing TV serials all day long - I finally finished My Beautiful Neighbor! (I am such a closet TV junkie.)

I've got tons of work awaiting me on Monday when I get back to work, but for now Imma enjoy my weekend. forget work and finish everything I've been procrastinating at home!

To-do list:
- Pack my bursting untidy closet so that clothes don't fall out everytime I open it
- Fix the DVD player that Mom was violent with because it wouldn't play her show
- Tidy my room: Work has made me so tired and lazy lately that my room is in. SUCH. A. MESS.
- Start planning for my itinerary for July! (Though I think it's too early.. But the early bird catches the worm... Right? ... Or maybe I can drag this for a while lol)

And here's a funny picture I thought I'd share here:


6 of us at Universal Studios, on the 'Revenge of the Mummy Ride' last Saturday!
Look at Boyf he's just sitting like nothing happened while the rest of us are screaming our heads off HAHAHAH.

#Random: Hmmm according to Google, today's the '119th Anniversary of the First Documented Ice Cream Sundae'. It's time for a good old-fashioned sundae then I suppose ;)

Weekend rendezvous

I'm in my bed snuggling in my blanket on a Monday and it's perfect. How can it not be when I've had such a great weekend - with a holiday on a Monday to top it off? Heh :)
A little glimpse into my last few weekends..


I think this was taken last weekend or something? At one of my eldest cousin's baby shower!




It looks fierce only because another kitty was snatching its' food. It did warm up to me after some snuggles, though.


Brought Baby to Universal Studios Singapore on Saturday as a birthday gift since he's never been there before.
I went on the Battlestar Galactica ride on Saturday - it was more awesomely scary than I realize it would be! Baby refused to sit on it with me, citing that he might puke from the ride. Wasted I'd say!!
(Yes, I'm in the above photo screaming my head off. 3rd last row, 2nd from left - that's me LOL)


Then we went to Sentosa (again) yesterday cos "his relatives from China" were here and we had (kinda) obligations to bring them around.. (I guess.) He looks older by 10 years in this picture though, haha!


Baby says our cheeks match cos we both have really chubby cheeks.


That about sums up my great weekends - I'm hoping to meet my friends soon, I miss them so much!
I haven't met Leemin and Joel and Hui and Greg and Chong in so long... :(

There's alot of things weighing in on my mind. A lot of thoughts running through my head.
Many things have changed, that I've realized. But I'm not one who associates well with change.
Quite a few events have occurred that have changed my mindset on things, and on human behaviour.
Sometimes I really think I need to speak up, but that's really something I need to work on - me being kinda introverted and all.
I need an outlet - Boyf doesn't really understand sometimes and my friends don't really have time for me so sometimes there's nowhere to turn.
It's funny how alike yet different we are, though. I've always believed a partner & a best friend should be hand in hand - while he believes they can never be the same. Why so? I don't know.
I envy those who can just pour their heart out - that never seems to come easy for me. I'm getting tired of holding so much in...

Ah well. Time to get back to work tomorrow. Who knows what tomorrow will bring?..................
Currently there's this quote that keeps rewinding in my mind - Memento mori.
Translated from Latin... Remember you must die.

Lunar New Year

These are the shoes that are gonna accompany me through my Lunar New Year this year.
I reckon I'm gonna bring the sneakers over to Malaysia next week when I visit my relatives - haven't seen them in over 2 years but I'm not that excited.
I'm more excited about getting on an airplane and flying off - been kinda addicted to flying since Taiwan last year.


My 1-day work week has ended today and I'm thrillllllled. Office is closed until next Wednesday and I've applied for leave - so I'm only slated to work on Valentine's Day.
Awesome or what? :)
(I knowwww. I'm not so happy that I'm working on V-Day.. But it's only V-day. It's such a commercialised day!)


Lol I'm slowly progressing towards office-styled clothes. Must get rid of habit... Since I can practically wear anything I want to my office - My boss's great like that.
(And she's great because she gave me a $200 bonus out of nowhere. HAHAHA.)

It's a Monday, so I'm trying to enjoy sleeping late - but a whole day of spring-cleaning and having fun with my colleagues at the office has tired my body.. And there's nothing to do. So, goodnight world.
I'm definately sleeping till late tomorrow. WOOHOO!